As disappointing as it was to have to miss the first race of the season – Oceanside 70.3 – it was the right choice. A strained ligament in your toe sounds awfully pathetic to boot, but ligaments are stubborn little buggers and they like to take their own sweet time in the healing process. It’s interesting the stages you go through as an injured athlete as well. For me, this time, it went something like this:
Stage 1 – Pure Denial: Oh it’s FINE…just tweaked it…I’ll be fine with a day or two of rest (while I’m meanwhile sweating buckets.)
Stage 2 - Panic: Okay, it’s been a week and it still hurts to put weight on it, I better go see the podiatrist. Crap….is this a stress fracture? Will I ever run again???????? HELP!!!!! Serious panic mode.
Stage 3 – Positive Outlook: All righteee then, podiatrist says it’s just a strain and that I should be good to go in about 4 weeks time. That’s not so bad. 4 weeks….I can do this. Water running will be fine. It will give my body a good rest and I’ll be fine in no time.
Stage 4 - The BLAAAAAS… I am SOOOO not having a good time with this. Water running is about as exhilarating as getting kicked in the teeth and with my first race coming up I just won’t be ready.
Stage 5 – Seriously disappointed: Nope, I won’t be ready for my first race which I so very badly wanted to do. Maybe I can just do a DNF and do the swim and bike for early season training and not even bring my running shoes. Nope, not happening. Can’t bring myself to going to the start line knowing I won’t finish. Not possible.
Stage 6 – Fear: Okay, I think I’m almost better now, but what if I push too hard too soon? What if I re-injure? What if….what if….what if……
Stage 7 – Get your head out of your butt and start running again….slowly. With wise advice from my coach I was literally ordered to start running again. I was resisting, scared I would re-injure – now THAT’S an interesting concept. Resisting running? Who knew???? Walk/Run ratio running is a SUPER way to come back - or pseudo running. It’s WORKING!!!!!
Stage 8 – YESSSSSS!!!!!!! Back at it, and with that, each and every run just gets better and better. Legs stop being sore after runs, the fluidity comes back, it’s all good. Serious runner’s high during each run and training set that I complete pain free.
PATIENCE….not one of my virtues!!
Seriously though, being injured is one of those things, but when you come out the other side you realize how much you learned. How much being able to train/race really means to you and how grateful you are for every step (or pedal stroke or swim stroke) you can make – a renewed vision and motivation! I also realized that starting the season a bit later was truly not the end of the world. It will be a long season, and there are many more races to come!! An injury also gives your body some well deserved rest. This injury had me on the sidelines with ZERO running for 8 weeks. Not too bad….but felt like a lifetime. And to be honest….I really do believe I will be stronger for it. Those other little nagging aches and pains are gone and I can run more ‘freely’ than I have in a very long time.
Survived the injury….if I can do it…so can anyone!!! Onwards and upwards!