My Dearest Wife,
I am deeply sorry for the last 9 months when I’ve been moody, grumpy and injured. So much worse than those days when I roll in bonking from a long ride in the rain or too smashed to complete a day’s training. Those are one-offs, occasional glitches. What I’m apologising for now is the consistent gloom that you’ve put up with in the background, the ups and downs when I think I’m near to a solution only to have the pain back a few days later.
While I can’t apologise enough for how being unable to run has made me behave, I hope that this is some small explanation.
I love running. Throw in a chronic but manageable case of shin splints over the last few years which turned from low grade annoying to ‘I can’t even run for 2kms’ – from 70-100kms a week to ’20kms on a good week, zero on a bad one’ – and you have the start of my recent predicament. Perhaps the most frustrating part of the injury was not just the fact that I couldn’t run, but that there was no clearly defined mechanism which could be adjusted simply to relieve the cause of my troubles.
Clearly I have bad foot biomechanics, but this combined with a changing of footwear, changing of running technique, invariably sub-standard stretching, inappropriate training loading, variable diet (pro-flammatory) and several rounds of orthotics, different physios meant that pulling out the actual issues and dealing with them systematically was going to take some time. 8 months of focused, systematic, issue by issue elimination to be exact. (Let’s not count the previous few years of ad hoc adjustments and novelty solutions).
And now, touch wood, its all fixed. How sunny life is again! No more complaining about the NHS sports referral system; no more toys out of the pram moments on the front step after an unsuccessful run; no more taking change for the bus out on a test run for when I get into trouble and have to get home somehow.
Thank you for always saying the right thing, for putting up with my moodiness, for tolerating my bad humour.
I love you even more than I love running.